Rock Bottom

This week had left me in the abyssmal rock bottom depths career-wise. So I guess there's a first time for everything eh...

Since returning here, nothing seems to be going in a real positive direction. Is my star signs unaligned? Is my fengshui displaced? Or is this a challenging phase of my life which I simply have to overcome to further strengthen my inner-self? Being grounded and realistic as I am, I chose the latter reason.

Maybe this might be a blessing in disguise as put forth by many of ex-collegues? We'll just have to wait and see. It's weeks like such that makes me long for the simpler life I had in the island paradise. And yes, I do miss that island so much. Leaving it was indeed a regrettable option.

I feel strangled by the numerous hordes of people in the never-ending pursuit of material wealth. I feel betrayed by the so-called prospects and a better quality of life that would be present in conjunction with having an education. I feel time is running out and not on my side. I feel different and find this society on the whole stifling and suffocating.

But of course it's too late for regrets. It's no point whining and moaning. I need to work even harder to get myself out of this rut and society. That's exactly what I'll do. Yup. Exactly.