41 years young

National Day yet again...and no, you still won't catch me flag waving at the stadium.

I think giving up 2 years of my youth and another 10(reservist) after, is patriotism enough by my standards. So no faux pas display of flags outside my window the wrong way(wait kenah fine), no wearing red to show I love my nation(and Giodarno), no "I AM SINGAPOREAN" sound bites likes the ones going around the internet right now...Just plain ole grateful cuz' Lau Lee made the right move to seperate from our Northern counterpart.(Imagine still being part of M'sia...jeez...Not like it's all bad...at least we'll have cheap pirated VCDs easily accessible :P)

Chance this upon the net, and found it all inspiring...so I leave you with birthday wishes and this interview from David Marshall.

I can totally relate to what our ex-Chief Minister is saying...you decide.

Rock Bottom

This week had left me in the abyssmal rock bottom depths career-wise. So I guess there's a first time for everything eh...

Since returning here, nothing seems to be going in a real positive direction. Is my star signs unaligned? Is my fengshui displaced? Or is this a challenging phase of my life which I simply have to overcome to further strengthen my inner-self? Being grounded and realistic as I am, I chose the latter reason.

Maybe this might be a blessing in disguise as put forth by many of ex-collegues? We'll just have to wait and see. It's weeks like such that makes me long for the simpler life I had in the island paradise. And yes, I do miss that island so much. Leaving it was indeed a regrettable option.

I feel strangled by the numerous hordes of people in the never-ending pursuit of material wealth. I feel betrayed by the so-called prospects and a better quality of life that would be present in conjunction with having an education. I feel time is running out and not on my side. I feel different and find this society on the whole stifling and suffocating.

But of course it's too late for regrets. It's no point whining and moaning. I need to work even harder to get myself out of this rut and society. That's exactly what I'll do. Yup. Exactly.